We were trying to get into a house by Christmas. I ended up putting the Christmas tree and decorations up last minute, when I realized it wasn't going to happen. So many times we put stuff off for tomorrow. You know, for when things get better, i.e. When we get that new job Or graduate college Or make more money Or pay off debt Or find our person Or get a house I never expected at 31 when I became a single mom that life would be mostly about survival. I say mostly because you still have to find joy in your life no matter the struggles, the heartaches, or the disappointments. A friend once pointed out that life is essentially doing the best you can with what you are given. That has been my mantra when I think I'm not doing enough. So I challenge you to find the joy in your life, even on those hard days. And I wish you and yours a very blessed holiday season full of love and happiness. From my home (future dream house) to yours, I wish you a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year
It took a while to process that the last house wasn't meant to be. God and I had a lot of one sided conversations after that. You know they say God sometimes doesn't answer your prayers because he's either trying to protect you from something or something better is coming. So I took it to mean something better was coming. We found another house on the same street as one of my son's best friends. Just three houses down. Hallelujah! It's a sign! It had the porch, the fireplace, the extra bedroom for my office, the Florida room, the back yard. It's all there. I did a little happy dance. Could it be? Was this our house? It felt like it, but then so had the last house. Why all the coincidences? The kids and I couldn't stop talking about how much we loved the house. We even drove past it a couple of times. I imagined sitting white rocking chairs on the front porch, just like my brother had at his place before he died. It would be a tribute to him. My Kis-sy-fer.